I could use some time somewhere else where I could lay down with all of my friends and maybe go for a swim because right now the city seems way too big and we'll be drunk by 5 PM and then we'll go for a walk score some pizza out a garbage bin pass out and wake up by 9 o'clock city slicker I hardly miss her my head is bursting at the seams and I am drifting out to sea wicked blisters mental twisters all day long down at the beach this whole day has been a dream and now I'm drifting off to sleep

I don't know if you're just afraid of expectations or if my emotions have made things too complicated but what I do know is you made me feel at home and now that I'm alone again I can't help but feel jaded would it be wrong to say that I was led on when we shared a bed for a month were we just having fun cause to me it seemed like we were together though not technically and maybe that's for the better am I allowed to feel like I'm a husk of a man who cannot comprehend the things that you have done to him or if that's too sensational then I guess I could pretend that nothing happened and we're just friends It had a major impact on my self esteem I'll play it cool and then I'll bury it down deep my brain could use a little reprogramming cause what you get is really not what you see

don't go back to shore life there's such a bore put your arm around your brother tell your mother that you love her you'll never find yourself if you're always on the run work everyday and you'll never get anything done it can't be feast or famine or else your heart's bound to cave in write your name down and never mind all of this chatter never forget who you are where you're from and who matters lay down and let that warm sun hit you think all about the folks that miss you don't go back to shore life there's such a bore put your arm around your brother tell your mother that you love her

When I die I will die alone I will burn every bridge that extends to the people I've known having neither a family nor friend that I can call my own and having exhausted your sympathies I'll withdrawal from this world with one pithy remark I will work little hours each day being stretched far too thin while I piss all my earnings away school may have been fun but I know now that I cannot stay likely I'll think I'm an artist I'll dither and die in food service someday oh my friends how they're going to try to respect my thoughts and want me to be part of their lives but when we're adults we will be separated by miles and I'll be a distant memory while they've got their children and families oh well When I die I will die alone I will burn every bridge that extends to the people I've known having neither a family nor friend that I can call my own and having exhausted your sympathies I'll withdrawal from this world with one pithy remark and this pit this pit in my heart will continue to grow while my family and I fall apart at least brother will be there to make me feel like I am smart he'll know that this is a fool's errand but otherwise I'd still be wishing it was what I did I will love and I will treat them right there will never be someone who won't leave me after a time either by cheating on me or by simply letting me slide I want it but I don't believe in it and I'm too stubborn to be proven wrong When I die I will die alone I will burn every bridge that extends to the people I've known having neither a family nor friend that I can call my own and having exhausted your sympathies I'll withdrawal from this world with one pithy remark

I Am Going To Die by Roof Doctor Share / Embed Wishlist supported by kyle maternick thumbnail wet___dog thumbnail Joan Elton thumbnail Dylan White thumbnail Ocean City 00:00 / 02:35 Digital Album Includes high-quality download in MP3, FLAC and more. Paying supporters also get unlimited streaming via the free Bandcamp app. Buy Now name your price Send as Gift I Am Going To Die CD Compact Disc (CD) package image package image Cardboard sleeve with High-Gloss UV Coat. Kevin remastered the album so now it sounds real good. Starts shipping 12/20/2012. Includes unlimited streaming of I Am Going To Die via the free Bandcamp app, plus high-quality download in MP3, FLAC and more. ships out within 7 days edition of 100 Buy Now $5 USD or more Send as Gift 1. Ocean City 02:35 2. Thanks For The Blankets 03:49 3. Mark Dog 02:45 4. I Am Going To Die 03:25 When I die I will die alone I will burn every bridge that extends to the people I've known having neither a family nor friend that I can call my own and having exhausted your sympathies I'll withdrawal from this world with one pithy remark I will work little hours each day being stretched far too thin while I piss all my earnings away school may have been fun but I know now that I cannot stay likely I'll think I'm an artist I'll dither and die in food service someday oh my friends how they're going to try to respect my thoughts and want me to be part of their lives but when we're adults we will be separated by miles and I'll be a distant memory while they've got their children and families oh well When I die I will die alone I will burn every bridge that extends to the people I've known having neither a family nor friend that I can call my own and having exhausted your sympathies I'll withdrawal from this world with one pithy remark and this pit this pit in my heart will continue to grow while my family and I fall apart at least brother will be there to make me feel like I am smart he'll know that this is a fool's errand but otherwise I'd still be wishing it was what I did I will love and I will treat them right there will never be someone who won't leave me after a time either by cheating on me or by simply letting me slide I want it but I don't believe in it and I'm too stubborn to be proven wrong When I die I will die alone I will burn every bridge that extends to the people I've known having neither a family nor friend that I can call my own and having exhausted your sympathies I'll withdrawal from this world with one pithy remark 5. Dishwasher with a Dishwasher 02:07 i try not to be a mopey guy and i try not to be in front of my friends when i cry but i'm finding when i keep all of my anger cooped inside that trying isn't really worth the time so i spend too much of that up in my room i am alone i won't pick up my phone especially for you because you piss me off more than all of the other people do i know that nothing that you said to me was true and now i'm glad that i am seeing someone new i hate being on the back burner and not having a clue and unlike with you my feelings will not cause her to resist yeah she is a really great psychologist I'm glad that i just started a job eight hours washing dishes and my brain will just turn off it lets me pass out and not confront any of my thoughts i guess that means my sleep problem is solved in the fall i am going back to school you could say that in the past few years i have been to a few and i think i might be going for something i'd like to do but if that does not pan out i'll still be cool but if that does not pan out i wont be cool but if that does not pan out i'll still be cool but if that does not pan out i wont be cool

uncle got me out of a lot of shit mother gave me warmth and food and sleep father gave me what I should not be brother let me in his company I appreciate this life has given me too much and now I want to be a better man but I'm a coward I doubt that I'll ever become anything that I can respect Nick drove my drunk ass back in my car same one grandma gave me when she died covered now in scratches dents and scars am I an adult cause I can drive sometimes we take more than what we give don't know if we're right or we're selfish get in fights with family over nothing let the months slide cause we're lazy like to think that I'm a funny guy all wrapped up in jokes and revelry wondering how long this can sustain is acting young when old done in vain how is it that I can work and play soon enough I will have bills to pay I get stressed out enough as it is I am so small and my life is so big uncle got me out of a lot of shit mother gave me warmth and food and sleep father gave me what I should not be brother let me in his company I appreciate this life has given me too much and now I want to be a better man but I'm young now contemplating about things that I am far too young to understand

I'm tired and I'm a cynical failure and I've wasted two years of my life can't meet anyone without feeling like the whole god damned experience is trite so I'll cut off from them how could I meet anyone who could possibly be my true friend my thoughts are going in circles and it'd take a miracle to stop I'm stuck in a downward spiral where I feel worse for doing the things I want so I'll cut off from myself what's the sense in being concerned at all with my feelings or my health good times are much more infrequent and I feel my body aging way too fast the kids keep trying to show me that there is some hope that this bad phase will pass but I don't know who I am plans and words fall out but I doubt that they will ever happen